Holy shit. I mean, none of this will be news to anyone reading this now but maybe it will be useful to someone somewhere sometime? Just a few weeks ago I made a doctor's appointment to address my ongoing sinus issues and a worldwide pandemic wasn't even in my radar. In just that 1-2 weeks' time I was thinking how ridiculous it was for me to go to the doctor right now for such a minor thing. Thankfully the decision was made for me and my appointment was cancelled due to my doc being ill. We are in major crisis mode and it's so much worse than most people realize. Governments are lying their asses off about how many people are infected. In the US we can't even get tests so it's just totally a guess and all "confirmed" cases are just based off the very few tests that are given. Not accurate at all! While this may seem like some conspiracy theory stuff, AuThatsstin was reporting only a few cases of infected people and in EMS there were at least 6 people infected and NONE of those were reported on. It was all on the down low. The only cases being reported on are either high profile people or people on the edge of death. It's frightening, alarming and fascinating how fast this is all moving. I mean we've seen it in the movies but it seems so unreal and now we are living it. I'm actually around to witness a pandemic. It seems to be going easy on the kids and killing off the old and weak. I mean, that kinda seems like nature right? On a completely abstract level, we could use a good culling. I'm not being mean here, just practical. In just the last few weeks there's been a huge decline in air pollution just from people not traveling. It's like nature was saying, "Oh you need more motivation to fix your shit? Here, let me help you." The worst thing for me personally is that while we did stock up before the mass hysteria hit, we will, at some point, need to go grocery shopping and the grocery stores are all empty! It's absolute madness. Lines going around the block, people waiting hours and then there's nothing to buy. It's complete craziness. So half the people now have a year's worth of food and the other half nothing. It really speaks to how selfish our social construct has become. People are fighting over paper that wipes shit from your skin. I mean think about it. If we got shit on any other part of our body, would we wipe it off with paper and call it clean? Hell no! But that's what we do and now people are fighting over the fucking toilet paper. Like full on brawls! We have plenty but I bought a pack of bar towels that we can cut up and use if this keeps going the way it is. People are hoarding water... like somehow we will run out of water because of a virus? Seriously, this is just more proof that we need to be eliminated. The human race is too stupid to live. I have basically cancelled all social plans involving crowds for at least the next year. I don't want to risk getting my patient sick. I could probably survive it ok but he probably can't. If something happens to him I don't want me to be the cause of it. I don't think I could live with that. I feel so bad for his poor mom. She is so worried and upset. I've been spending a bunch of time and money on planting in my garden so that will be my refuge at least until winter. I'm nearly done planting in it. Just mostly waiting on stuff to hurry up and grow. I've got a few warmer weather plants I'm waiting to plant because most things are still dormant.
Cady is still very much in my life, thankfully. She is part of that which gives me peace and happiness so we are trying to sort out our new dynamic. That's really all I'm going to say about that.
I was really excited yesterday because I planted a few passion flower vines, which are host plants to the Gulf Fritillary butterfly and I saw one scoping out my vines! I don't know if it laid an egg but it was spending quite a bit of time inspecting the plants and also scoping out the rest of the yard, like it was deciding if the whole area was acceptable. So cool! Also the bulbs I have planted aer starting to sprout. I've seen maybe 3 of them sprout and it's so exciting. I'm always amazed when I plant things and they actually survive. I'm definitely not a green thumb person. I may need to buy a few flats of parsley if my little sprouts don't make it. Those are host plants to Black Swallowtail butterflies. I also have milkweed for the Monarchs and Pipevine for Pipevine Swallowtails. Yesterday I planted tons of Zinnias and some red sunflowers that were an impulse buy. I'm just so hoping everything grows and I can create an amazing garden that attracts lots of life. I need that in myl ife.
I will try to update this in a few weeks. It will be interesting to see how much crazier things have gotten in that time.
No comments:
Post a Comment