Lots of fun stuff going on lately. As you know I'm back at work and doing well. I'm nearly done with physical therapy which is such a relief because the drive to get there is always super stressful. I always feel like I need a massage after the drive because I'm so clenched up by the time I get there. I guess that was partly why I started looking at smaller cars to drive. The second half of the drive has a highway that shrinks into a 4 lane road with lanes that are terrifyingly skinny. A lot of Austin is like that. I mean, I had a mid sized sedan and felt like I was inches from grazing the cars on either side so WTF does a big car or truck do? UGH! Anyway, I was doing a bunch of research, thinking about what kind of car I'd drive if I could take all the parts I loved from past cars and made a car baby out of it. For a while I was really focused on a BMW i3 which is electric and tiny and SO CUTE! The only downside to those was the price. A new one was $50k and there were a few probs with the older ones. It's a lot to pay for a tiny car and for it to have problems. Long story short, I ended up buying a Hyundai Kona. It's a bit cheaper than an Accord but I got the highest trim possible so it's full of amazing tech. I'm kind of a tech whore. Shaun helped me figure out why I was so focused on replacing a car that was actually very nice. Accords are great... Very sensible cars, very comfortable inside and had lots of options for comfort. So what was the problem besides that for some reason I couldn't get the satellite radio to work anymore? The problem was that the reason I bought it in the first place, was because I was exhausted and fucked up from chemo, had frozen shoulders and was in too much pain to drive a stick so I had to get an automatic. At the time I wanted to roll up in a ball and disappear. So I got a very ordinary looking car that didn't stand out but was very comfortable on the inside. I'm in a different mindset today. Now I've gotten cancer twice. I'm no longer in pain like I was and though I still don't have loads of energy, I feel more at peace with myself and was ready for a car that made me feel happy. This is the first blue car I've ever had. It makes me think of the color of the Caribbean water. It's full of awesome tech. It is small but has power. I feel like it fits my personality a lot better. Shaun is the one who pushed me to get it because I was being super wishy washy. I mean... the Accord was a great car so it felt weird to replace it already. It's only 4 years old. It had its purpose and I am grateful I had it. So this car I decided on wasn't available in Texas. I knew exactly what I wanted and contacted 2 dealerships but they only had the gray ones. I got a dealership to go to Wichita, KS to get me the one I have. I was in contact with them maybe 3 weeks trying to find a way to get the trim and color I wanted. Okay anyway, moving on. I'm probably the only one this excited about it. Ha!
In other news, I finally got my prosthetic boobs, 2 bras, 2 tank tops and 2 swim suits. They were expensive AF but I will say very well made and they have the pockets I need for the boobs. I will make sure those last me a long time. I also got a sleeve and glove. With my insurance and a 20% discount on top of that, it was $500 if you can even believe it. JHC! The day I went to the car dealership to talk to someone was the day I got the boobs and it was SO NICE to walk around in a tank top and not have a little bit of self consciousness. I just felt like a normal person going in to look at a car. I should probably stop looking at high ticket items "just for fun". Oh who am I kidding? Fun is good and I can afford it right now so fuck yeah I should do it.
Speaking of fun, I dropped some <redacted> a little while ago which is something I hadn't done since my early 20's. It was way more chill this time than last time but that may also be partly because of the amount. The last time I did it was 6 hits which is sort of insane. This time it was 2 but hours spaced apart so not bad. I spent 12 hours face timing with my awesome Cuz and her hubby. It was nice actually. First off, I never get to see my family so it was nice to get a long visit with her and secondly, I loved talking to her about our ideas about what life is about because we are both... I guess some would say really "out there" with our theories but we are pretty much on the same page about it. I guess my favorite part was watching "Living Art" on Netflix which is basically just nature shots. I slept a bunch in the next few days after that but other than that, it was really nice and didn't seem endless like the last time. My kitty was a little weirded out by me. It could have been partly my own visuals but her eyes looked a lot like the cat in Shrek when he makes his eyes get all big and sad. She is so expressive. I guess it's because I had a fair bit of nervous energy. It does that to me.
I guess that's pretty much it for now. Until next time, live each day like it might be the last because it might be. This is a crazy time to be alive between climate change and political unrest. Live it up!
