My waiting period until surgery is at an end. I'm in the home stretch to a journey that feels like forever. It's been a tough road but it helps that I have the most amazing honey in the entire world! Seriously, I feel like besides cancer, my life is perfect. It feels amazing to have someone love me and adore me this much. Everyone should have a connection in their life like this. I feel like I can get through pretty much anything.
In about an hour we will be leaving to pick up my mom from the airport. She's going to be here maybe 3 weeks to help out with my care and Shaun will be off work for a few weeks too. I'm not sure how it's all going to work out with who's going to be where and doing what but it will work itself out. Shaun and I have spent the past 5 days cleaning and organizing like crazy, getting ready for my mom to be here and also for me to again be unable to do much around the house for a while... a month or 6 weeks. Six more weeks and I can go back to work again! I got a text from the family I was working for. They are so amazing and sweet! I just love when I get videos and pics from the kiddo's mom. He's so adorbs!
Today Shaun and I have had a beautiful day. We spent time cuddling and talking. Shaun cried a bit. He's scared to death I'm going to die on the operating table and he's freaked out about having to wait 10 hours to see if I made it through okay. He's been singing sweet songs to me and we even slow danced and just stared into each other's eyes. The amount of love in my heart and in my life is just boundless. It's incredible.
I'm not super worried about surviving but if I don't I know Shaun is set in every way except the emotional side. We have all our paperwork in order as much as a gay couple can possibly have in Texas. I have amazing surgeons though and I have no desire to leave this life at this time so I'm saying it's going to be a success!
Look out world, I'm about to become a new butterfly!
